After her son hanged himself, Janis Tait searched for written material to help her cope with the overwhelming emotions. The few books available told her of the stages of grief. But she needed to feel, to get beneath the skin of another mother who had suffered this way... to know there was a way out of the grief-swamp. When someone suicides, family, friends and colleagues find themselves asking: Is it my fault? Could I have stopped it happening? The story and poetry in this book will help those left behind work through the feelings of guilt, anger, confusion, depression. As well as exploring the impact of grief, this book shows the devastating effects of schizophrenia. And most of all, it illustrates the ongoing close bond between a mother and her son. READERSHIP: for readers who are struggling with the suicide of a family member or close friend; trying to cope with schizophrenia or chronic depression; involved professionally with the social issues of depression, mental illness and suicide; are researching youth suicide.